The Way I Used to Be

Unabridged Audiobook

Release Date
March 2016
9 hours 45 minutes
New York Times bestseller! In the tradition of Speak, Amber Smith's extraordinary debut novel “is a heart-twisting, but ultimately hopeful, exploration of how pain can lead to strength” (The Boston Globe).

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn’t change who she was. But the night her brother’s best friend rapes her, Eden’s world capsizes.

What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved—who she once loved—she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she’s supposed to tell someone what happened but she can’t. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts—freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year—this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman’s strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, all while learning to embrace the power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.
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it was sad and beautiful. i love it!

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This book does a beautiful job describing the fallout of trauma. It was very sad and even frustrating at times, but it is an important topic! I really loved the book.

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This book was absolutely amazing, and I love how it relates to other girls my age that may be going through the same thing that can’t exactly speak up yet. She didn’t exactly cope for it the right way but she’s not exactly wrong for it either, I was left in tears. The narrator I understood perfectly.

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Amira L.

I loved this book. It was heartbreaking, but extremely beautiful. I couldn’t put it down and finished it in a day. Highly recommend!

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I absolutely loved this book! I will definitely be listening to this book again!

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The narrator was great....I purchased this book not realizing it was a YA book, but I would not encourage my 17 yo daughter to read. I could not relate to the main character's position on dealing with her trauma.. And I would have liked to know details on the villains story.

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